Where are you little star?
Somewhere hiding between the clouds.
I miss my little star
I miss my little heart
A dream upon a dream
Never fully realized to me
But you shine so brightly out in the dark blue
You sparkle and make my heart full
Yet, broken
My little star, my little star
Shin  brightly
So I may find you
One day.

So one week ago we took a long ride to the er. We were so happy thinking that we would be beginning the journey of expanding our family of three into four. But it just wasn't to be. It's been a difficult week, and I feel alone and sad. My husband has been wonderful, but he is going through this also. I just wonder if I can be happy again. I am hopeful. I feel horrible bringing everyone down, but I can't help it. I'm just mad and angry and just plain tired.
I am really trying to be good and move forward. But I am so mad, mad mad. I have to be happy for my child and I feel guilty being sad around him, because he deserves a happy home. I don't know why. Miscarriage sucks. And that's all I've got to say about it. Thbbbbbbbbb.

Late a night
All I hear is the refrigerator clicking
And I'm wondering why I am
Still awake.
Why
So maybe I should give up
And go to sleep
But procrastination can be so much more fun
This is the story of my life
And I really enjoy taking my time
But then again
I do like to sleep
Yup
Masterpiece
Boom